The Beatles Night @ Kinamat Resto-Bar

March 26, 2011

Kristen Stewart | Vogue Magazine

Tight lipped or non at all.

Last February 2, 2011, I celebrated my 21st birthday. So, if i want to wear red, I’ll do it baby.

"Sometimes I bring out the best in people and sometimes they bring out the worst in me."

— Imrac

If you can’t convince them, confuse them. 

This feeling since I started reading those gruesome story got bigger and bigger each day. It’s as if it’s eating me alive and I’ve never been more cautious with the things I do or say.

Fear.

Fear of death. Fear of failing everyone and myself. Fear of separation with the ones I love. Fear of waking up one day and realize that everyone I treasure is…gone.

I first read Art After 5. It left me scared because it made me open my eyes more about what can happen. Everything can happen with or without your permission. The story is about the point of view of the main female character. Yes, it made me cry. It also made me realize that in a blink of an eye; a friend or a relative of mine can die. After reading Art After 5, yes it made me cry and realize that I should value the things that I hold. But after that I moved on to another story and that was it. I forgot the story but not the feeling.

Then, I came across Counterpoint, the male point of view. The fiction that made my fears more fearful. The author made me feel alone and scared but very much fortunate because it made me appreciate the thing they called, “LIFE”.

With this feeling even though it made me feel horrible and scared, I feel compelled to show my appreciation to everyone who deserves it and my love and comfort to anyone who needs it…because I can. And even though I show it in a very weird way. It came from all of my sincerity even if it came off bad or wrong.

The author of Art After 5 and Counterpoint which is a fanfiction of Twilight is sleepyvalentina. Sleepyvalentina is the online alter ego of a grown woman with 2 college degrees who has better things to do with her time, but routinely chooses to avoid doing them. She lives in Philadephia with her family. She does not own Twilight but she certainly own all of the contents in her website because it’s her thoughts with her heart.

The recent story that I’m reading now that I haven’t finish yet is called Goodnight, Noises Everywhere which is made by Feisty Y. Beden. Feisty Y. Beden like the genre Jazz and hates bell pepper which is the same as me.

First Photomanip for 2011.

Happy New Year!

More to come. 

- Carmi